This weblog was suposed to be a place where I could be thoughtful and philisophical. A place to download the things that I have noticed in society. A place to express my views as a somewhat conservative, educated, woman, mother, sister, friend, citizen. I occasionally post about things political but not too political. Sometimes I like to debate but most of the time i am posting about something one of my children said or Food. Yes I guess this is a “mommy blog.”
I am somewhat dissapointed with myself. I wanted to shout from te mountain tops that I am more than just a mother (all be it a profound and important profession). The fact that I have been blessed with the ability to procreate should not change how I or others look at me. But it has.
I see things differently especially because I had boys. If I had not had these children I might be better off financially. I might have been able to be in house (a huge dream of mine) l may have travelled (Italy Greece and Egypt) I may have gone on to get my masters or something but I didn’t. I got married when I was 24. I had baby #1 when I was 26, #2 at 28 and #3 this past June. How could that not change me?
I now notice how some women treat men and it saddens me. I am all for women’s rights, but not at the expence of other’s rights. I still notice things in our community that could be changed, improvments in government and social issues, but i don’t post about that. For some reason I try to keep things light and funny. Sometimes I even fail at that. My last year (pregnancy) was all about the puke and the whine. I appoligize. However on my blog stats the words “gag” and “puke” are my #1 searches. Either I have a following of pregnant ladies that are having trouble with their moring sickness or some bulemics looking for a support group. Either way thanks for stopping by.
I guess what I am trying to say is that right now in this moment i am a mother and the things that are most important to me are what happens to my family. I need to accept that and move on. Besides I have 3 kids and one is an infant, who has time to really philosophy (yes I used it as a verb, it sounds better when you pronounce the “y” as a long I instead of a long e). Aak who am I kidding?